The Yawar Chronicles.

It’s 1 a.m. I’m lying in my bed, staring into the darkness, and somehow my mind has decided that now is the perfect time to think about my entire future. What will happen? Will I achieve everything I have imagined? Will all those things I have manifested in my head actually become real? Will I become the person I keep imagining myself becoming? I don't know. And maybe that's what scares me. People always tell us to live in the present. Don't worry about tomorrow. Focus on today. Make your present better, and your future will take care of itself. And yes, I understand. I really do. But sometimes I wonder—how am I supposed to completely stop thinking about the future when I have so many things I want from it? I have dreams. Not one or two. A whole bunch of them. Things I want to see. Places I want to reach. Things I want to achieve. A version of myself I haven't met yet, but somehow already know I want to become. And sometimes, when everything becom...

  Who are you? Seriously. Why are you pretending to be busy when you are not? Nobody is asking you to stop your life, drop everything you're doing, and sit beside your phone waiting for someone's message. Nobody expects an instant reply every time. People have work. People have families. People have responsibilities. Sometimes people genuinely don't feel like talking. That's completely fine. But this strange little performance people have started doing—“I'll see the message, I'll have time to reply, but I'll wait because I don't want them to think I'm too interested”—what exactly is the point? Who are you trying to impress? Because sometimes it looks less like being busy and more like acting in a low-budget movie where the main character is desperately trying to prove that they are important. And the funniest part? You're probably online. You watched the story. You liked someone's post. You scrolled through Instagram for forty minutes. You re...

Two months. Just two months, and college is over. Done. Finished. The same college I walked into in 2023 thinking, okay, it has started — when will it end? And now, standing at the edge of the end, I don't know what to feel. Happy? Sad? Relieved? Empty? All of it. None of it. Something in between that doesn't have a name. Time didn't walk — it vanished. Like it was never really there, just a feeling we borrowed and quietly had to return. The Irony Nobody Warns You About When something begins, we ask: when will this end? And the moment it starts ending, we look back and ask: where did it all go? We enter a chapter of life impatient for the next one. We rush through days, through semesters, through seasons — not realising that one day we'll sit somewhere quiet and try to gather those days back, only to find our hands empty. That's the strange joke life plays on all of us. And nobody warns you. Nobody sits you down and says, hey, pay attention, because this —...

  Travel · Life | April 2026   Travelling is one of the most beautiful things you can do. New places, new air, a change of scenery — there's something about being in motion that makes you feel alive. But here's the thing nobody tells you in those aesthetic travel reels: travelling is only as fun as your body allows it to be. And sometimes, your body has its own plans. Today was one of those days. I had been on the road since early morning, and by the time I reached my destination, my legs felt like they had quietly resigned from their duties. The fatigue was real — the kind that settles deep into your bones and doesn't ask for permission. And the funny thing? As I sit here writing this, that same tiredness is still with me, like a loyal companion that refuses to leave. My body and my brain were clearly not in sync today. My brain wanted adventure. My legs wanted a bed. This, I've come to understand, is what I call the first layer of travel disturbance — the one that com...

"Dreaming is beautiful — but living inside the dream without moving is just noise in your head." There are moments when I catch myself wishing for things I don't have yet — a lifestyle, an achievement, a version of myself that exists somewhere in the future. And then something clicks. Why am I mentally living in a dimension I haven't reached? Why pretend to have what I don't, when all that does is pull me away from what's real and available right now? Gratitude isn't a cliché — it's a reset. When I turn back to what I actually have, and say Alhamdulillah sincerely, the noise quiets. The restlessness softens. I'm not saying forget your dreams. Dreams are fuel. But daydreaming without direction? That's not fuel — that's a leak. "The distance between where you are and where you want to be is called: the work." Progress doesn't happen in flashes. It builds — quietly, gradually, one honest day at a time. You shape yourself the same...

Sometimes I sit quietly and think about time. Not in a deep scientific way, but in a very simple way, like remembering how life used to feel when we were younger. Back when I was around twelve or fifteen years old, a day actually felt like a full day. We could feel the morning, the afternoon, the evening. Everything had its own space. We used to wait for Sunday the whole week so that school would be off. Waiting for that one day felt like waiting for something really special. Even the school days had their own excitement. We waited till 4 pm so that the school would end and we could finally go back home. That wait felt long, but in a good way. Back then a year felt like a long journey. We felt every month passing. We noticed the weeks, the days. Time moved slowly and we were part of it. Life had a rhythm. There was a routine. I remember waking up early in the morning and going to the darasgah for Quran teaching. It was cold during winter mornings, and I used to carry a kangri with me t...

Another year is quietly coming to an end, and a new one is standing just a few days away. There was a time when a year felt long, heavy, slow. Now it feels like it passes in a blink. After a certain age, time starts moving differently. Faster. Sharper. You don’t even realise when January turns into December again. I remember myself as a school kid, going to school every day, carrying that bag, looking at college-going students with curiosity and hope. Back then, I always thought life would become better when I grow up. When I become a college student, I’ll have freedom, fun, confidence. I saw college students laughing, roaming, living freely, and I believed that was the peak of life. Now I am that age. And yes, it is fun. But it is also serious. Life starts asking questions slowly, silently. With every year, responsibilities don’t knock loudly, they just appear. You start thinking about your future, your direction, your place in the world. Life begins to feel real. This year made me re...

There are days when I feel lost, days when I feel fine, and days when I don't understand myself at all. So I wrote this straight from the heart, without filters, without trying to make it perfect. Just me putting my feelings into words, the way they came. We talk about clarity like it's something you find one day — like it's sitting somewhere waiting for you to arrive. But what if it isn't? What if clarity is something that comes and goes, and most of the time, we're just living in the in-between? In the space between knowing and not knowing. In the space of maybe. Life is good whether I’m doing good or not, still, life is good. I can be sad, happy, angry, lazy, sleepy. I might be good at studies or maybe not, maybe I’m not studying hard enough, maybe I’m not doing enough for my future, maybe I don’t even know what I have to do. No direction, no clarity, no idea where to start. Maybe I’m a good person, maybe I’m becoming one, maybe I only say it but I’m not. Maybe I...

There are some connections in life that feel so natural that we start believing they are meant to stay forever. Some people enter our lives with so much warmth that it feels impossible to imagine a world without them. Some bonds feel complete even before they begin and still somehow remain incomplete in the end. This is one of those stories that no one talks about out loud, a story that hides between two hearts that meet beautifully but cannot stay together. We are so close but we cannot belong to each other. And even though these words look simple, the feeling behind them is something that not everyone understands. There are people who come into your life as if they were always there waiting, people who make your days softer, people whose presence feels like home. And yet for reasons we do not understand, the universe takes those same people and places them on a different path. There is a quiet ache in knowing that something so pure cannot stay. It is a strange sadness that does not s...

  Life can be tough in so many different ways. Sometimes it feels like everything is stuck in a loop, like no matter what you do, you keep coming back to the same point again and again. And in moments like this, I have started questioning myself in a very real way. Before starting anything, we never think about the outcome. We just begin. We don’t think about fear, consequences, acceptance, pressure, or the result. But then somewhere in the middle, after we’ve already started something, the mind suddenly wakes up and begins questioning everything. Why does this happen? Why don’t we think the same way before starting? Why do these questions show up only after our heart has become involved? We start asking ourselves — Is this right? Will this work? Am I really doing what I promised? Will I be able to handle everything? What if things go wrong? What if people don’t accept it? Where do all these thoughts hide before the beginning, and why do they appear loudly in the middle? It’s like ...

It’s been a while… and honestly, life feels stuck — like really, really stuck. College has started, classes have started, but I haven’t. I’m not going to college, not studying, not even pretending to study like I usually do 😅. Every semester, I tell myself “This time I’ll start early”, but here I am again — just scrolling through the syllabus and calling it a productive day. The 5th semester feels like the same old movie on repeat, maybe just worse this time. My mind feels heavy — I have so much to say, so much to write, but no words come out. It’s strange how sometimes you feel everything all at once but still can’t express a single thing. I’m just lying in my room all day, music playing in the background, thoughts louder than the lyrics, and I keep asking myself, “Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha yaar…” 🥲😭 It’s been a long time since I’ve done the little things that used to make me feel alive — like clicking pictures of nature , watching the clouds move , or just traveli...

A few days ago, something beautiful—and quietly heartbreaking—happened in our family. My sister got married. It was the first wedding in our home, the kind of event that fills every corner with excitement, laughter, lights, guests, and the smell of mehndi. And yet, behind all the celebration, there was a softness in the air that only a sibling can feel. Because when a sister gets married, it’s never just about her starting a new life. It’s about you watching a piece of your own life take a new shape. I still remember the morning of her wedding. The house was buzzing with relatives, the sound of tea cups clinking, the rush of last-minute preparations. She looked stunning—like she had stepped out of a prayer. Everyone was smiling, but inside I felt something I can’t really put into words. Pride, happiness, love, and a tiny ache that kept growing as the day went on. Then came the moment. When she stepped into the car with her groom, I cried. Not a few polite tears—real, unstop...

So, why does life never take the path I always want? It always seems to move in the opposite direction, as if me and my life are like two similar charges—never attracting, never walking the same road. I carry so much inside me, so many dreams, so many versions of the life I want to live. Yet, it feels like for a long, long time nothing has gone right. Not always—sometimes a few days shine bright, but soon enough I find myself back where I started, stuck at level 0, not even level 1. Maybe life is testing me, maybe it’s shaping me into someone wiser, stronger, more beautiful within. Or maybe it just wants me to learn how to carry weight before I can rise to the top. But I believe—one day, everything will shift in my favor. One day, I’ll stand at the top level of the life I’ve always wanted. And through it all, I’ll remain the person I truly am. You may wonder, who am I? I’m someone who refuses to give up, who stays positive even when things break me, who never rushes but und...

Travelling, especially by bus, has always been more than just a way of moving from one place to another for me; it’s like entering into a whole new small world that keeps changing every single day, every single ride, and sometimes I think that’s why I’ve developed this strange love for it, because whenever I sit in a bus on my way to college, to home, or to some other place, I don’t just sit there waiting for the destination, instead I dive into the little universe that unfolds around me, and the beauty is that no two rides are ever the same, each day the bus fills with different people, different moods, different faces, and that’s what keeps it fascinating for me. I notice things, that’s my thing, I don’t judge, I don’t poke into someone’s life, I just silently observe what they’re doing, how they’re carrying themselves, and sometimes I end up learning a lot just from that, and maybe that’s why I don’t prefer to wear earphones while riding, because while everyone is lost in their own ...

So, I’m in my 20s now… and honestly, life feels like a rollercoaster that forgot where the brakes are. I thought after 20, I would have it all figured out. Like seriously — I had these big, beautiful dreams. I wanted to own a camera, roam around the city, click everything I saw — trees, roads, flyovers, light poles, even old buildings with a story on their walls. I thought I’d be out there chasing sunsets and stories. But where am I now? Sitting in my room, with my laptop open for vibes and my phone glued to my hand like it pays my bills. 😄 We make such big plans, don’t we? “I’ll study.” “I’ll create.” “I’ll earn.” “I’ll be consistent.” And then boom — we take a nap that turns into half the day. And suddenly, it's already night and the guilt is knocking on our door. I have so many dreams in my head, but let’s be honest, dreams without expenses are just stories. I want to do a lot — create blogs, shoot videos, click pictures, learn new things… but the budge...